Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Not so quiet anymore

In the previous post I mentioned that I was concerned about the end of the ceasefire and about today. I lied. I wasn't concerned, I was really really scared. But you may have been able to read it between the lines.

I don't know what it was that made me so scared, perhaps the heavy chopper traffic, but I just felt it. In fact, when I talked to hubby on the phone last night, I asked him if he thought I was going to die today. It just slipped out. Realizing how melodramatic I sounded and how worried I must have made him, I quickly laughed it off.

Hubby didn't miss a beat. He reminded me of his advice that if I see a rocket coming my way, I should skip lightly to the side, like in cartoons. We continued to joke about the matter, each trying to console the other despite the 6000 miles that separate us. At the end of conversation, though, the 'love you's and 'miss you's were not said in their usual offhanded way, but with much intent as we both wanted to make sure the other knew how much we meant it. Like a little goodbye perhaps?

I went to bed around 2 a.m., woke up at 3:30, got up and watched some news around 4 a.m. Mom came to watch the news with me. She couldn't sleep either. Then dad. We went back to bed around 4:30 and slept for another 2-3 hours and woke up much better.

I was watching a stupid movie this morning when I heard three distant booms. No siren. I said nothing. Then the siren came. We went downstairs. Four more booms after the siren. Back upstairs. Here we go again.

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14 comments:

Kathy said...

Hang in there. Our thoughts are with you all.

Anonymous said...

What drama.

why dont you and your parents fly to your hubby's home and get the hell out already?

michaelm said...

Keep the sense of humor, Mel.
Somedays it's all you got.
Still in my prayers...

~michaelm

rdl said...

Stay safe!

Kathleen Bolton said...

oh my god, melly, you're breaking my heart. We're praying for you.

Deborah said...

Here's a big virtual hug for you and your family.

Edie said...

So difficult to come up with words. Everything i've already said and more... You have many loving spirits around you Melly

jmk said...

dont know if you can get this, but my prayers are with you. Your posts make this whole thing real..horrably real.. I share your posts daily with my husband, and look forward to your posting when it's all over and life is good. Bless you...

jmk said...

hi melly, i thought i just left you a message but dont see it and not that it was much to read, but i need to tell you that your writings have made this 'real' and unbleaveably hard to beleave it's happening. News on tv is so sad, but so much more worrysome when you have writings from someone living it. Your doing us a good thing, i thank you, and i pray for your safty. I pray for peace for all of us, and cant wait for your writings when your at peace. Bless you girl, and all in danger.. jmk

pepektheassassin said...

Hello, Mel --I just dropped by from Nienke's blog, at her suggestion. I've read your posts, and I hope this finds you and your family safe and well. May things get better soon!

So_Far said...

Good morning. Greek media this morning said that war became hardest with body to body fights inside Lebanon. They also mentioned that Israeli troops arrested fighters of Hezbollah. Your blog reminds me "Ann Frank's diary" .

fred charles said...

Melly - I hope that you and your family are okay. Please keep us updated.

jason evans said...

If your parents can leave for a while, they should seriously consider it. Being under this exteme stress is not going to leave you all unscathed.

Melly said...

Everyone, thank you so much. You give me so much strength. Really. It's not just a saying. I feel I have peopel around the world who actually care. And that's what makes all the difference.