Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Scared

Alright, I'll admit it. I'm scared.
About half an hour ago there was a series of nearby explosions without the warning of a siren. So far, this is the most scared I've been. So far, I've counted on the sirens to at least warn us.

As I've mentioned, my parents live in a north-facing apartment. Meaning, an apartment facing Lebanon, where the rockets are coming from. Without a siren, we're very exposed as there is pretty much only the corridor that can serve as an inner room, as futile as it may sound.

My heart doesn't stop racing and I have that bitter fear taste in my mouth.

Slowly, my other family members are leaving the north, heading south of Haifa. There is no relief and no quiet. I'm trying to calm my racing heart, and maybe writing about this helps. Not sure.

Earlier this morning there was a siren and one distant boom after the siren. This time - no siren and a series of nearby booms. At the same time we just heard of massive casualties in Lebanon and I want to cry for them and for us, but I must stay strong or I'll crumple.

11 comments:

Marcail said...

Sometimes it is only a soft voice that is the sound of peace. Though difficult in difficult times, use your soft voice to sooth yourself and others.

Nienke said...

Melly!
I am scared for you and hold you in my thoughts.

jason evans said...

Horrible, just horrible. Keep safe, Melly.

Melly said...

Thanks Marcail. I doubt my "soft voice" would sooth the Hezbollah, but I do hope it soothes the Lebanese civilians.

Nienke and Jason, thanks so much.

Anonymous said...

Scary stuff girl. Stay away from windows, broken glass can be deadly. It would behoove you to board then up or just leave all together and hopefully this will all blow over soon.

Best of luck.

rdl said...

So glad you posted, keep em coming. any plans of leaving??

Melly said...

Thanks Anon. That's good advice. We really do keep clear of windows and try to hide under serious concrete stair ways. But sometimes, there's no siren...

rdl, no plans at the moment as my mom is firmly against it and I won't leave her here obviously. I might convinve her to spend a day in Tel-Aviv or something like that though. I think we all need a break from the constant fear we live in.

Deborah said...

I hope you can talk your mom into going, if not for a day. If you have any relatives in that area, you might want take your momentos and store them there just in case (god forbid) you guys come back to something worse.

Again, you're in my thoughts and hopes.

Jaye Wells said...

Melly, I'm sure there are no words that can ease your fear right now. Just please know you're in our thoughts. Please take care.

John Baker said...

Be safe.

Melly said...

Thank you all. Being safe is definitely my first priority right now :)